Painting the Day

The idea is that you awake from the world of unremembered dreams and create the unfolding day. Most of this day is felt before experienced. Meaning we wake up, and as soon as we open our eyes, we start to feel. What we feel is made of remembering our yesterday and calculating our today. Both are passive and reactive but not proactive. Not realising that today can be seen as a reset, an opportunity to approach life with a fresh perspective—a blank canvas to paint on. And then the brush can use conscious strokes instead of impulsive strokes from yesterday's thoughts. What is in the room does not have to be historical but present. It only existed yesterday because this is the story you tell yourself.

However, if you were to tell yourself this is all new and yesterday was but a thought, who is to argue with you? Your partner? Surely, you find yourself many times walking down the same street, yet each seeing and experiencing something completely different. And if you are of a small mind, you will argue about it until at least the next street, and if you've finally grown up a little you will understand at least that we all see the world differently, that there is little objective truth but many subjective ones.

Once you observe this, is it so difficult to comprehend that yesterday, even if it was, was not like you remember it? Yesterday was a bad day, but was it? Or was it so because you defined it as such? And today is already a shit day, because again you defined it as such based on yesterday's definition? And much of your definition is not based on reality but on how you're feeling and what causes these feelings? Tiredness? Negative thoughts? What? Certainly you've had this experience that you woke up feeling light and good and then you remembered yesterday, and that beautiful moment was gone, never to come back again on this day?

So the world around us is a reflection of our feelings, and feelings are something we have the power to influence and guide through awareness and choice. True, if we allow ourselves to get extremely angry and start punching walls, we're likely beyond the point of control, but that is only because the choice was to be made earlier. Am I talking about jumping out of bed and saying life is beautiful? No, we're not delusional Disney characters, but if this is delusion, then why is jumping out of bed and proclaiming this day is shit without even opening the curtains not delusional?

I'm advocating for the idea of a clean canvas. Christianity believes if you repent all is forgiven. Judaism believes in true repentance also. Meaning you can wake up every morning with a clean slate if it's guilt and "sins" that are holding you back. Or if you're beyond the world of religion, then surely it shouldn't be a problem to accept this clean slate concept? Or do we agree that guilt and feeling bad has nothing to do with religion, and that perhaps it truly is about flawed thought?

Today is going to be whatever you're going to feel it to be, and your life is going to be a reflection of your feelings more than your actions and thoughts.